Learning to slow down
Hey Y’all ! Welcome to another blog post ! I literally haven’t posted is FOREVER because life is Hitting me so hard. This post will be me venting about what has been going on, but rest assured there will be a positive message at the end. Hopefully y’all can relate. I don’t want to say my 2020 has been off to a bad start, but it is not what I expected it to be thus far.
In the midst of school, having a life and of course trying to grow Twiggy Versatile I feel as though things just started happening so fast ! By things, I mean lifes many obstacles. My Macbook pro went bomb on me for one. Literally all my blog posts and content ideas that I had pre wrote and thought out were saved on my laptop. Next thing you know I don’t have my laptop because the screen just went blank on me .I have to get it fixed, but it is super expensive to get it fixed. Nevertheless, it will be back soon and I will be back to making the content I want again. Thank God for iCloud . Also, from here on out I will be using google drive again to ensure that all my things are safe ! Lesson learned.
On top of that, I got really sick out of the blue it was crazy. My body literally shut down. I am a natural busy body so the minute I’m not doing something productive makes me feel useless. Can anybody relate ? I always get depressed when I get sick because I never get sick. However, I started trying to understand why this is all happening. You’re probably reading this and thinking two things “ It’s not that big of a deal,” or “ these types of things happen to everybody,” and I couldn’t agree with those two statements more.
Life hit me even harder with other situations, but I am not gonna get that deep today. Maybe another time :)
Anywho, I’ve come to a realization that I need to slow down.
Not only do I need to slow down, but I need to make time for me. I need to be praying more and I need to bask in my alone time.
I am a very spiritual individual with a whole lot of energy. I am dealing with people everyday and at the end of a day I feel a little drained. It‘s weird I have all this energy, but sometimes I get home at the end of a day and I feel like bleh. Does that make any sense ? Yes, I’m happy, but I’m realizing that I can be doing a lot more for myself. I want to protect my energy. I have to learn to say no and understand that not everyone is deserving of my energy. Sometimes, I feel like I care too much about how others feel more than myself and I don’t want to do that anymore.
I want to be more selfish. I always tell people it’s okay to be selfish for their own well being and here I am doing the exact opposite. LOL I’m not a hypocrite or anything I’m just human with a heart. I promise y’all I’m taking this one day at a time. I am slowing down though and I do see change. I am even taking a gap year before I go to grad school because I don’t want to rush the process. I want to do things for me. ( I’ll have a blog post about why in more depth later) So here’s the positive message that I said I was gonna talk about :). If you’re anything like me, and you like to go the extra mile for people, bless your heart ❤️. However, check in with yourself everyday and make sure that you’re doing fine. You can’t be good for no one else if you not good by yourself ! It took me falling sick and dealing with the obstacles life gives to realize that again, but hey nobody is perfect. Life is hard already, but don’t make it harder by forgetting to take care of yourself !
That is all for now my loves 😘 Sorry that I was away for so long ! I’m back on track and you can look forward to new posts every Sunday again. I’ve finally got my groove back y’all :) Thank you to everyone who continues to check in on me. Your love and support does not go unnoticed and I am so thankful. Let me know what you guys want to see next !
Till Next Time My Loves,
Twiggy Versatile xoxox
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